I have to say, this year sucked ass. Two of the people in my life who professed to care about me the most lied to me and betrayed me; abandoning me and spreading very interesting lies behind my back. I’ve tried to be all zen and understanding about it but no. I can’t stand them and I can’t stand myself.
In my best moments I realize I am better off with these people out of my life because toxic relationships aren’t good for anyone. I have better friends who throughout all of this have been there for me. I pray every day to keep them and welcome new love into my life.
So, it is in that spirit that I give a resounding fuck you to 2012. Tonight I will try and focus on what I can do to make 2013 a better year for myself and for my daughter.
Another goal I have for this year is to clean out as much clutter as I can. The garbage man is gonna hate meee… I plan to donate and sell very large amounts of extra clothes and collectables that are taking up space in this house. I’ve already taken care of our living room tossing a 40 year old dining set that was falling apart but my Mother refused to throw out. We’re hanging up pictures that previously were crammed into shelves and tossing out anything we haven’t used in 6 months.
My workout schedule is going well but I have to admit; if I don’t have work, I do NOT get up at 6am to be in the gym. I figure if I’m off, I can work out in the afternoon when my kid is at school. As long as I DO it, the time isn’t important.
My goal of 4 pages a day has not changed. Even with the new comic I’m working on, I’ll still make sure to get one short story out every month and Greenhouse will be done by the end of the year. I would like to have a store full of stories in all genres! 😀
I would also like to take one vacation with my whole family. I usually run away and leave them behind. While necessary for my sanity, some of my best memories are traveling somewhere cool with my family. It was harder when I was a kid because my Granny was in a wheelchair but we are blessedly all able bodied so other than time, there’s no reason not to go. 🙂
I think that’s all the important stuff. Anything else you all think I should add?
And good riddance. 2011 will always be the year my Ma died no matter what other good things happened to me. Her death eclipses all 365 days. All I can claim from it is her cold hands and the smell of HOSPITAL from which I will never come clean and will spur panic attacks for years to come.
I’m still thinking of what I want to accomplish in 2012. When I have a list, I’ll post it. As of right now all I have is “Not 2011.”