I really should have continued to get up early enough to have breakfast. I’ve been slacking on that. Then again, this was the week of my period and I don’t sleep well. It takes a full dose of my anti-anxiety meds to even get to sleep and I don’t stay asleep. Therefore, I have to drag myself out of bed in the morning. I stay tired all day; not even Death Wish Coffee helps. I just muddle through until my hormones rebalance and I feel normal again. Which will be in a couple of days!
Tomorrow, I’ll get back to the bodyweight and kettlebell apps. I’m still stuck at 208 and I don’t want to lose my muscle definition. I can’t skip those days anymore. And, if I can get disciplined about my writing, I’ll be getting back to C25K very soon. I genuinely miss running and I want to get back to it.
I have the habit of not eating breakfast. I tend to hit snooze until the last possible second and I’m not hungry first thing after I wake up. Today, I tried to get up early and make myself something simple that wouldn’t upset my stomach but filling enough that I’m not starving by lunch time. I did a crappy job cutting up the hard boiled egg but I put it on toast with a little butter and it was fine! The black spots are the lemon pepper grinder from Trader Joe’s.
I was still hungry around lunch time; which was leftovers from the previous night: Pasta, sliced garlic, olive oil, and diced tomatoes topped with some mozzarella.
When time came for dinner, I wasn’t really that hungry. I ended up just having a snack before my workouts.
I did my body weight workouts with a few extra reps thrown in there. I’m sure it will take time to see more changes in my body, particularly my abs but I think it’s worthwhile to continue getting up just a bit earlier to make sure I eat something and have some coffee before I really start my day. Especially the coffee…
It really is better for me to start my day with workouts before I can talk myself out of them. Especially if I don’t sleep well. I keep waking up in the middle of the night for one reason or another. It’s really annoying.
But at least this workout got the heart points up. For some reason after increasing the resistance, the workouts weren’t giving me those heart points. I mean, if they mean anything. I dunno if this metric is important for progress or not.
Pushing up the resistance was a great call. I feel more challenged and it makes me want to work harder. Maybe this will help me reach my goals faster.
I started to notice that it’s been too easy to use my Wirk peddler and when I checked it, there was still a few more clicks to maximum resistance. So, I cranked that baby to the max and HOOOboy! I sure feel the difference in my thighs! I know the heart points or whatever aren’t as high but my muscles are working and building muscle is what I want.
I seem to average about 1,000 words a day which isn’t bad for when I want to write more short stories when this is over. Figure if I outline and write a story at 1,000 words a day, I could have something to publish by the end of the week! And one of my goals is to publish more stories faster. I find this promising.
I did my usual biking at work and did the rest of these after I stopped writing around 10pm. I still need to tweak things so that I have time to do some meditation or relaxing breathing right before bed to help me wind down. Just because I’m in the bed doesn’t mean I always get to sleep right away. And with the heat, I’m having issues staying asleep and waking up in the middle of the night broiling hot and miserable; blearily scrambling to adjust the temperature so I can go back to sleep. At least I lost some water weight that way?
As you can see, I am still behind and I’m ok with that. See, over the weekend, I went to have dinner with friends and people kept asking me if I was ok. Earlier last week, I had a coworker ask me if they’d done something to make me mad since I was so quiet. When I looked at myself closely in the mirror, I looked dead on my feet; just tired and sullen.
I need to take better care of myself. I’ve been up very late and not getting enough sleep. I haven’t even been cooking much because cooking takes writing time.
I did manage to make a few things but mostly, I’ve been living on snacks and leftovers. I look angry all the time and yeeeaaahhh, that’s not good.
So, this week I’m writing at a leisurely pace and stopping at a decent hour to get some sleep. I don’t even think I’ll hit 50k words just because the story doesn’t need it. I’m gonna chill the hell out and enjoy this process.
I took a walk to get some broccoli to make a real dinner and did my desk peddler. Once I got home, I used all my workout apps; including the sleepytime stretching to wind down and sleep soundly. Today I feel more normal but breaking the grindset mode is gonna take a while.
I made sure to get this workout in early so I can spend the rest of the day working on my book. I really pushed the pace to get more calorie burn and I’ll be doing the kettlebell later. Since I’m doing Camp NaNoWriMo, I am sitting more so it’s even more important to get more steps in and get my muscles moving. So far, I’ve had success with an alert popping up to tell me I need to get more steps in. I’m getting higher numbers but still not close to 5k a day. It’s getting so much easier, though, and it keeps me from hunching over the Freewrite all day.
I’d intended to do a longer workout but I didn’t have the time or focus for it. I’m too tired to focus on any one thing so I didn’t want to half ass ten more minutes.
At home, I’m still doing my body weight workouts and even though this is the week of my period, the scale is pretty stable. Not dropping but not gaining either. I swear, I’m gonna have a party once I get under 200. It’s taking so much longer than I thought it would and I’m frustrated.
Yesterday I did do my bodyweight workouts but I will tell ya, I felt so freaking tired around 4pm, I called it a day, did all the stuff I needed to do, and went to bed early. I have no idea what happened. I got up early for a day off, did a few chores, then it was like someone flipped my night-night switch and all I wanted to do was sleep.
And yet, in some ultimate fuckery, I spent the night tossing and turning without actually getting any sleep.
But, thanks to coffee, I have a fair amount of energy today. I had a quick walk, did the above workout on my Wirk peddler, and I think I’ll have enough energy to grab the kettlebell after dinner.
Also, shameless self promotion, my new book is out in two days! If you’re one of my Patrons, you already got a sneak preview. This is the third in a complete trilogy and you will not have any idea what’s going on without reading one and two. Hope you check them out!
I not only dusted off the ole kettlebell, I did 50 squats, some arm lifts, and leg lifts. I’m going to try to aim for doing weights 5-6 days a week even if it’s only 10 minutes while making sure to take a rest day for my muscles to recover or if I’m too sore. I wanna get stronger not hurt myself.
Tomorrow is my late night and I’m stressed the hell out so I’m probably going to use that as my rest day. It’s been a LONG week and I’m so looking forward to Sunday when I can finally have a break. And by “break” I mean do laundry and clean while I watch YouTube.
I also got creative with some of the pulled pork I made last weekend so I don’t get bored with the leftovers.
I made some black garlic ramen and put some of the pork on top. It was so good. A little salty with the combined seasonings of the pork and the ramen flavor packet but so satisfying. And don’t judge my liberal amount of scallions. I love me some scallions and the crunch they add to the dish. Helped out with the salty flavor, too. I would absolutely make this again but maybe with plain ramen noodles and just a dash of sesame oil.