This was a cute little box but I an’t use the dishwasher stuff. I don’t own a dishwasher. XD One day when I can afford to redo the kitchen, I will absolutely get one.
Now… On to why I haven’t been posting. Long story shot, I’m getting divorced and I’m dealing with the emotional fallout from that. You’d be surprised how such an emotional roller coaster it is so I haven’t been writing. So, in the last year or so, I’ve lost my Ma, my library, and my marriage. I’d like some freaking kudos for not being blackout drunk right now much less producing any creative work. But I’m getting there…
I’m sure you’ll all be sick of posts about Sandy but yes, since Lenni lives on the East Coast, I’m still cleaning up from the storm. We lost a bunch of food and were in the dark for a couple days but we are lucky to be back up and running right now. The worst that happened to me personally was a tree branch landed on the top of my car and dented it a little. I have pictures but…
I know not much went wrong by me but I’m still in a sate of shock. I have had very dear friends of mine lose EVERYTHING and the library where I work will be closed indefinitely. I don’t sleep too well and I’ve been tired and depressed. Every time I venture out for food, I see gas lines for miles, tress on people’s houses, and the persistent hum of those lucky enough to have a generator.
Without my job, I feel like I have no purpose. But I’m making the best use of my time by cleaning out clutter from the house and writing as much as I can. It’s not even about the short story experiment anymore or the blog project or anything like that. Aside for filing for unemployment, I need to have some other money coming in till I can get my job back.
It’ll be a long time before we can get back to normal but it’ll happen.
Another goal I have for this year is to clean out as much clutter as I can. The garbage man is gonna hate meee… I plan to donate and sell very large amounts of extra clothes and collectables that are taking up space in this house. I’ve already taken care of our living room tossing a 40 year old dining set that was falling apart but my Mother refused to throw out. We’re hanging up pictures that previously were crammed into shelves and tossing out anything we haven’t used in 6 months.
My workout schedule is going well but I have to admit; if I don’t have work, I do NOT get up at 6am to be in the gym. I figure if I’m off, I can work out in the afternoon when my kid is at school. As long as I DO it, the time isn’t important.
My goal of 4 pages a day has not changed. Even with the new comic I’m working on, I’ll still make sure to get one short story out every month and Greenhouse will be done by the end of the year. I would like to have a store full of stories in all genres! 😀
I would also like to take one vacation with my whole family. I usually run away and leave them behind. While necessary for my sanity, some of my best memories are traveling somewhere cool with my family. It was harder when I was a kid because my Granny was in a wheelchair but we are blessedly all able bodied so other than time, there’s no reason not to go. 🙂
I think that’s all the important stuff. Anything else you all think I should add?
This Sunday was spent helping my husband clean out the garage. =_= I am sore but not as sore as I thought I would be hauling totes of collectables up and down stairs.
The really cool thing was seeing all of my Granny’s old jewelry and nick-knacks. I remember playing with them when I was a child. Some of them even still smell like her! Part of me never wanted to part with any of the stuff I was rooting through, including my old stuffed animals and toys. Remember Hess trucks? I have one. U-Haul truck? got that, too. Small army of stuffed bunnies? Do I EVER! 😀 But then the darker part of me thinks "I could make a small fortune on Ebay on all this vintage jewelry…"
A lot of it I will NOT be selling. This is my Granny’s stuff. Off limits. My stuff however; and Ma’s collectibles, those are fair game.
I am frightened, FRIGHTENED, by the sheer volume of Xena and Star Trek merchandise my Ma managed to amass over the years. I’ve got the green light to unload the Xena stuff but I’m holding off on the Star Trek stuff. Ma has the complete set of dolls still unopened in the boxes. I’m waiting till we have the choice of either sell those or lose the house.
In health news, I haven’t lost anymore weight but Ma is not doing much better. Granted, she’s moving around the house and driving ok, but she’s still not able to do things like NOT lay in bed all day. She HATES it. I use that word with complete impunity here – hate with a capital ATE. I know how that feels when I’m laid up with a cold or a sprained ankle so I can’t imagine how it must feel when there is no end in sight to your sickness and you go from doing whatever you want to virtually bed ridden in a matter of weeks. It sucks.
So far, there has been no change or new reports from the doctors. Ma is back on her chemo and walking around with an oxygen tank but she’s more mobile than a couple weeks ago.
As for me? I need to get my shit together. I need to get driving and get as self-sufficient as possible so I can take care of Mom the way she took care of Granny. I know I must have told myself this a bajillion times but I still keep letting Ma do what she wants but she’s not able anymore. She needs rest.
I haven’t heard back from the editor on my story yet. I’ve already emailed her the changes twice and that’s more than enough. I don’t want to get annoying. ._.
I think that’s everything… *ponders* Eh, if I forgot something, you’ll just have to get another update from me. So there. 😉