Uhoh, Lenni Want’s to be on YouTube

If you’ve been keeping up with me on Facebook or on Twitter or even here, you may notice I’m all up in YouTube with the gaming walkthroughs will commentary. CrazyShootin started it all and now I’m on TheRadBrad, inLove, and agentjr watching games that I haven’t gotten to play or want to play… Or have been ruined for me by my ex. But that’s a long and depressing story. :p

Now, I am DYIN to get the tech necessary to record myself playing these games because hilarity ensues when I get frustrated or scared of these things. Also, what better platform to talk about my life than horror games? ;D It would be a much more comfortable way for me to start a vlog since that’s the thing people do these days. Playing the games gives something for my adoring public to watch instead of my face.

Yeah, I’m late to the party train with all of this but I kinda don’t care. Watch or not, it’s up to you. I’m still saving up the money for the tech to do this and for a PS4 (the release date for Silent Hills isn’t till next year! I have time!) so don’t count on it going up right away. But it’s coming!

I suppose the main reason for me to want to do this is because I enjoy watching others so much, I’d like to add my voice to the cacophony, as it were. I don’t plan for it to make any money or for me to be particularly good at it or for me to upload all the time (as you can see I don’t even update my regular blog very much), but I think it would be fun!



I weigh in on GamerGate

The hashtag was flipping every where so I read up on it and thank you so much Wired for summing it up for me. Since everyone in the universe is talking about it, why shouldn’t I chime in?

This scares me for a multitude of reasons… First and foremost, I like gaming and I’m not half bad at it. As I’ve posted before, I thought it’d be cool to make vids and such. Now, I’m scared to even talk on the internet lest some crazy ex of mine ruin the shit out of my life.

But I’m boring so, that’s not likely.

The biggest reason? I have a daughter who is a budding gamer. She loves this and has even expressed a desire to make her own games one day.

Nothing would make me prouder. Well, my daughter could grow up to anything she wanted and as long as she was happy with her life, I’d be the proudest mother in the universe. But she says “Mama! I wanna make my own games one day!” She draws characters, devises how her enemies will attack and how the hero will defend. She writes plots, listens eagerly to her mama’s rants about escort missions and glitchy enemies, and takes it all in like an adorable sponge. She cut her teeth on Brave for the PS3 and she is the one who introduced me to Amnesia* from a picture in a gaming magazine I’d left around. I see such amazing potential in her; this bouncy, creative little brownie who scampers around my house.

Is what happened to Zoe Quinn what awaits my daughter? Is slut-shaming and death threats the result of her speaking out against something she doesn’t like? Or making something innovative? Hell, or even making something relatively mediocre!

As a woman it’s scary, as a person who creates things to be consumed by the masses it’s scary, and as a mother, it’s fucking terrifying.

So the gaming world may be changing, the demographics are changing, the prices, the consoles, blah, blah, blah… Damnit, me and my kid just wanna play cool games. We wanna laugh, we wanna be scared, we wanna have adventures! And we shouldn’t be afraid to let people know we want those things. I shouldn’t be scared someone would read this and start threatening my life.

Just play games and be cool. Is that too much to ask?

*I keep her away from most scary games. Too much violence and straight up creepy shit.

Random Video Thoughts

Random book thoughts? Why not random video thoughts? And I am considering a YouTube channel for this sort of nonsense but then people would have to see my face or hear my voice. I’m pretty damn annoying when I put my mind to it. And by put my mind to it, I mean open my mouth and utter a single word.

There’s some pretty good comedy gold on YouTube and I’ve become a fan of CrazyShootin and his utterly hilarious game play commentary/trolling.

Except the Small Horse map.

Its just the most insane map I’ve ever seen (and I haven’t seen all these playlists yet). I’m up to part 6 and my only thoughts are “What is this and why is it happening to my eyes!?”

**His videos feature plenty of cussin, high-pitched squealing, and scary monsters so… You’re warned.