The flooding from Tropical Storm Andrea knocked out half the power in the library yesterday evening. We had to evacuate the public from the building and the flooding broke the plastic piece from under my car. Don’t believe me? Look:
I was able to make it home but I hadda call AAA to have my car towed to a repair place. Now, I have to pay for a rental, pay to have a part replaced that’s probably not covered under my warranty, thereby blasting through any overtime pay I earned since we opened.
It’s worth it, though. I love that car and I’ll get her anything she needs.
To make up for missing last week, this is a combination post.
In my practice, I have noted that force of will is the driving force behind everything I do; including magic. I do this for two reasons:
1. I feel it imbues a certain passion into my work.
2. It’s CHEAP!!
Like many Pagans, I have piles of books and reams of printouts of spells and various concoctions I would love to try, but some of the ingredients are so fricking expensive, I feel like part of being a practicing Pagan Witch necessitates winning the lottery or being a full time gardener. The closest I’ve come is saving up enough to buy a relatively inexpensive collection of herbs on Ebay. And even “relatively inexpensive” had me grateful for any OT I could get at work to make up for the cost. >_<
I understand someone has to make these materials and they should of course be compensated for their time and effort. But when you’re talking to your deities, who ever they are, I don’t think they really care if your athame cost you $20 or $200 or if you even just use your finger. Magic can’t always be about having The Stuff. It’s from within; borne from your intent. Making an herbal sachet or mojo bag quite obviously requires physical items but don’t go crazy. We all know money doesn’t grow on trees so go out and hug one instead. XD
Paypal is at it again… After the complete B.S. they pulled with Regretsy, now they have turned their sights on independent publishers of erotica. Now, I don’t use Smashwords, I use Createspace but it’s just a matter of time before Paypal sets it’s sights on me as well.
I for one am NOT waiting for PayPal to say “Oops, sorry. That was a poor decision because we are getting shitty press. We change our minds.” I’m switching to WePay. I’m not going to wait for my account to be frozen or have to scream at them to get at my own money.
Am I asking everyone to join me? Not really. This is a free country and people are free to make their own decisions about where they want to spend their money. And because I believe that, and some of my stories are erotic in nature, I believe it people want them, they should have them and that’s it.
Ma went back into the hospital on Friday night. I’m of the (correct) assumption there is going to be a lot of this in and out with hospitals which is why I didn’t furiously post about how much I was freaking out on Friday. While Mom is still in the hospital, she is in there because they will (rightly) not release her till the shingles rash has healed. She’s also getting a CAT scan on her lungs to see how the tumors are progressing. The nurses are being SUPER awesome and keeping me in the loop. I need to get them candy. XD
On the subject of money, I have decided I am going to close my Etsy store. Not right NOW but in the future when I own website has more traffic (meaning I can update it regularly). I’m working on having my own storefront of stories to sell, which will take time, but that got me thinking: If I’m going to have a storefront to sell my stories, why can’t I sell my needlework there, too!? I’m already paying for a domain and hosting so there’s no sense in me paying Etsy fees on top of that and making the CEO of Etsy rich while I don’t sell a thing. It would also give me the option of listing needlework when I darn well please and not have to worry about my shop standing empty or items expiring. I’ll still shop at Etsy because I believe it’s important to support handmade and indie artists and authors but I think I’d save money selling on my own. :/
Like I said, I don’t plan on doing this anytime soon. I have plenty of items there to keep the store presentable and there’s a bunch of legal stuff I have to do to close the Etsy store and set up my own site as a real business so I can pay my taxes and all that good stuff. I am WAY too cute to go to jail for tax evasion. 0.0 But I think this would be MUCH more cost effective for me and allow me to focus on my writing with less guilt about ignoring the 50 other hobbies I have. XD
I’ll be making this transition very slowly as I need to concentrate on getting as many short stories up to sell as possible. Think I can join the Million Club? I sure as hell am gonna try. XD One crazyassed story at a time. 😉
Aside for needing to just update more (prepare to hear more complaints about my kid and the general joys of being a working mother who scrapes for time to be creative), I have been thinking about how to make this a bit more lucrative. I have sold a couple more books and more people have been coming to my site, but at the same time I am becoming more aware of how I spend my time.
In order to make "extra" money, I’ve been taking as much overtime at work as I can get. And it doesn’t seem to matter because no matter how much "extra" money I get, I either break even or am slightly less behind than before. My kid is literally BEGGING me for my attention and acting up because I’m not around. I’m always working. I’m working so much that on my days off I am so freaking tired, I can’t play with her.
Though I love my mother to Reece’s Pieces, that was one mistake she made with me. As a single mom, she worked two jobs to make sure I had not only everything I needed but extra: Dance lessons, Saturday enrichment classes, instrument lessons… I was a very busy child. In addition, on her days off she had to take care of the yard and house. We didn’t pay for landscapers; she mowed our HUGE lawn and tended all our bushes herself. And cleaned. Didn’t cook, though. Ma can’t cook for shit. XD All this made it so at the end of the day, she was too tired even for a game of Chinese Checkers.
Since I don’t want to make that mistake, I will be taking less OT in the future. However, there is still a mortgage to be paid and my kid will always be better served if kept warm and fed whether I’m around or not. :p And since both me and the husband work full time, it couldn’t hurt if I explored some other avenues of income. That short story that got rejected? Rather than post it for free, I’ll make it available on Kindle on the cheap. As soon as I figure out how the formatting works. @_@ Everything that’s on my site now for free will remain as such but in the future, my short stories will go up on Kindle with previews on the site. As much as I want to be the cool author chick who gives her awesome stories away for free for all you lovely people to enjoy to your hearts content but, Lenni needs to keep her house. And eat. Food is great! 😀 Oh!! And clothes! Trust me, it’s to everyone’s benefit that I walk around with clothing on. XD
To that end, I’m back to my 5 page a day goal. And my journal doesn’t count. Neither does the blog. Five pages a day of pure creative genius. I’ll get there. 😉
See, I’m not one of those "Good Debt, Bad Debt" sort of people. I’m just like my Ma: I hate owing anyone money, EVER. I pay my credit card balances in full, my bills when I get them in the mail (as long as I have the cash to do it) and I refrain from borrowing money flat out from friends or family. Just leads to trouble I do a great deal of preparation to avoid.
Today, we signed the papers for the mortgage to put the second floor on our house. A thirty year mortgage. I’ve never owed so much money for so long in my entire life. @_@
So, in my head I’m thinking fuck tendonitis, I need to write and crochet my little heart out to have books and needlework to sell to pay for all this and still have this second kid my uterus is screaming for. 9_9 I’ll be paying a mortgage and sending kids to college at the same time! WEE!!