Updated book challenge count!

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

13. Eternal Captive by Laura Wright

14. Eternal Blood by Laura Wright

15. Eternal Kiss by Laura Wright

16. Phoenix Rising by Kimberly Gardner

17. Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

18. River Marked by Patricia Briggs

19. Bound to Please by Kimberly Gardner

20. Fool Moon, by Jim Butcher

21. The Navidad Incident by Natsuki Ikezawa

22. Desire Unchained by Larissa Ione

23. Passion Unleashed by Larissa Ione

23. Sin Undone by Larissa Ione

24. Warrior Prince by J.P. Bowie

25. The Darkest Kiss by Gena Showalter

26. Lucius and Callistus by J.P. Bowie

27. Eternal Rider by Larissa Ione

28. Immortal Rider by Larissa Ione

29. Flame of Surrender by Rhiannon Paille

30. Map of Ireland by Stephanie Grant

31. Caged by Sean Michael

Book Challenge Count!

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

13. Eternal Captive by Laura Wright

14. Eternal Blood by Laura Wright

15. Eternal Kiss by Laura Wright

16. Phoenix Rising by Kimberly Gardner

17. Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

18. River Marked by Patricia Briggs

19. Bound to Please by Kimberly Gardner

20. Fool Moon, by Jim Butcher

21. The Navidad Incident by Natsuki Ikezawa

22. Desire Unchained by Larissa Ione

23. Passion Unleashed by Larissa Ione

23. Sin Undone by Larissa Ione

24. Warrior Prince by J.P. Bowie

25. The Darkest Kiss by Gena Showalter

26. Lucius and Callistus by J.P. Bowie

27. Eternal Rider by Larissa Ione

28. Immortal Rider by Larissa Ione

29. Flame of Surrender by Rhiannon Paille

30. Map of Ireland by Stephanie Grant

Updated Book Count!

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

13. Eternal Captive by Laura Wright

14. Eternal Blood by Laura Wright

15. Eternal Kiss by Laura Wright

16. Phoenix Rising by Kimberly Gardner

17. Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

18. River Marked by Patricia Briggs

19. Bound to Please by Kimberly Gardner

20. Fool Moon, by Jim Butcher

21. The Navidad Incident by Natsuki Ikezawa

22. Desire Unchained by Larissa Ione

23. Passion Unleashed by Larissa Ione

23. Sin Undone by Larissa Ione

24. Warrior Prince by J.P. Bowie

25. The Darkest Kiss by Gena Showalter

26. Lucius and Callistus by J.P. Bowie

27. Eternal Rider by Larissa Ione

28. Immortal Rider by Larissa Ione

Book Challenge Count – Finally passed the quarter mark

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

13. Eternal Captive by Laura Wright

14. Eternal Blood by Laura Wright

15. Eternal Kiss by Laura Wright

16. Phoenix Rising by Kimberly Gardner

17. Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

18. River Marked by Patricia Briggs

19. Bound to Please by Kimberly Gardner

20. Fool Moon, by Jim Butcher

21. The Navidad Incident by Natsuki Ikezawa

22. Desire Unchained by Larissa Ione

23. Passion Unleashed by Larissa Ione

23. Sin Undone by Larissa Ione

24. Warrior Prince by J.P. Bowie

25. The Darkest Kiss by Gena Showalter

26. Lucius and Callistus by J.P. Bowie

Updated Book Count!

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

13. Eternal Captive by Laura Wright

14. Eternal Blood by Laura Wright

15. Eternal Kiss by Laura Wright

16. Phoenix Rising by Kimberly Gardner

17. Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

18. River Marked by Patricia Briggs

19. Bound to Please by Kimberly Gardner

20. Fool Moon, by Jim Butcher

21. The Navidad Incident by Natsuki Ikezawa

22. Desire Unchained by Larissa Ione

23. Passion Unleashed by Larissa Ione

Book Challenge Update

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

13. Eternal Captive by Laura Wright

14. Eternal Blood by Laura Wright

15. Eternal Kiss by Laura Wright

16. Phoenix Rising by Kimberly Gardner

17. Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

18. River Marked by Patricia Briggs

19. Bound to Please by Kimberly Gardner

20. Fool Moon, by Jim Butcher

21. The Navidad Incident by Natsuki Ikezawa

22. Desire Unchained by Larissa Ione

Updated book count

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

13. Eternal Captive by Laura Wright

14. Eternal Blood by Laura Wright

15. Eternal Kiss by Laura Wright

16. Phoenix Rising by Kimberly Gardner

17. Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk

18. River Marked by Patricia Briggs

Updated book count!

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

12. A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison

Updated book count!

1. Lightning, by Jean Echenoz

2. The Demon Lover, by Juliet Dark

3. Netsuke, by Nikki Ducornet

4. Smut, by Alan Bennett

5. Never Cry Wolf, by Cynthia Eden

6. Feral, by Joley Skye

7. Lothaire, by Kresley Cole

8. The Woman In Black, by Susan Hill

9. No Longer Human, by Osamu Dazai

10. The The Lady Flees Her Lord, by Michele Young

11. Eternal Hunger by Laura Wright

“Do I Deserve This?” Reflection and a manga review

On my trip to see the tree at Rockefeller Center for the first time, I of course had to hit up the bookstore the very second I saw one. There’s an organic experience to shopping for physical books in a bookstore rather than just ordering whatever’s interesting on Amazon. I get to pick up the book, browse the art, feel the paper quality (yes, this is a factor in my book purchases) and see if the physical item is in good enough condition for me to invest my money (yes, I have received damaged items ordering online). With these criteria in mind, I purchases No Longer Human volumes one AND 2 by Usamaru Furuya and Osamu Dazai.

It is an amazing book. It’s touted as “semi-autobiographical” and is a manga version of the novel, which I also plan to read. It’s written in the style of the main character, Yozo Oba’s journal as he sorta meanders from woman to woman, drink to drink; bouncing between homelessness and living in the back rooms of bars all the while struggling to understand these strange people we call, humans. It’s pretty extraordinary all the stuff this kid goes through and this book was good enough to get me thinking: Do I deserve to keep a journal?

Of course I have blogs. Everybody and their cat as a blog or perhaps two or three. I mean that secret book some have, in which all the thoughts we wouldn’t DARE put online (although some would which is why sites like THIS exist) or even tell our best friends. But I keep a paper journal for my random musings and what I have learned is called “Reflective Journal Writing.” And it’s not an effing diary. In the immortal words of Katchoo: “A diary will embarass you, a journal will destroy your life…if ever found and read by anyone who even remotely knows who you are.”

Unlike Yozo, I am not a womanizing, unemployed, drunk who is so attractive, nobody holds these character flaws against me. Sure, there are things about me that make me interesting or frightening to some people but is it enough to justify inflicting my horrid handwriting on pretty pages that quite frankly deserve better? Or is the life of a Pagan working mama and writer interesting to future generations of people who wonder about regular people; figuring not everyone can be Hunter S. Thompson? OR do they want to know the freaky private lives of “normal” people? One thing is for sure, I am certainly no Yozo. I have no rags to riches story, no druken, drugged out Thompson-esque adventures. Just lil ol’ Lenni. Is she worthy of a journal?