stress

(image from here)

I will admit to you that I am not the type of person who wakes up thinking “My! What a glorious day! I must verily ponder ways in which to seize it!” I am more likely to wake up like this:

(from SIP but taken from this site)

Just driving to work is enough to put me on edge on some days. Between a full time job, my daughter, my husband, and my writing, it’s a wonder I am not covered in wrinkles with a full head of white hair.

Most of us can relate, I’m sure. You want to be the type of person who seizes every moment but we are lucky to have a moment to breathe. I say, take that moment. People around me may get annoyed or tease me when I will just stop and let loose a great heaving sigh but man, that’s the best sigh EVER. Better than running to get coffee, better than chocolate (yup, I said better than CHOCOLATE) because in that breath, I am aware of my being. I am present in the moment.

Then I can go back to calling every one idiots for tailgating and changing lanes with out a signal. >_< And for the love of all that’s holy, why can’t my kid pick up her frigging shoes!!

*sigh*

Much better. 😉

Living is making the best of whatever you have and realizing that you may not have time for a 20 minute meditation every night or be able to take hour long walks whenever you want, but that second where you can stop, breathe, then continue. At least that’s what it is for me now. And it’s not so bad. 🙂

Here I am back from my week long girl get away. Eh, it’s not bad to be back. I did miss my family. But man, did I ever have fun. >}

I’m back to writing and typing Greenhouse as I edit Dreamhunter to be put up on Createspace. I also have to finish typing all those short stories and the next bit of Go Away Girls to post on the site. It’s been a busy holiday season what with all the baking I’ve been doing to prepare (and for fun), but since I’m going back to work in the morning, I’ll have my head completely back in the game tomorrow. ^_^

Tomorrow is also Yule, which I look forward to almost as much as Beltane. 🙂 This year will have a full moon as well so I would like to take the kiddo out to gaze at it as long as weather permits. She’s a little young for full on rituals so a little prayer will have to do.

The holidays are certainly taking there toll on me. I can tell because I’m perpetually sleepy and I have a lovely, stress induced sty forming. It doesn’t look bad and I intend to keep it that way, damnit. If I keep soaking it and can manage not to touch my eye, it should be gone in time for the 25th where I will be shuttled around to people who don’t hide from cameras like I do. >_o If not, I’ll have to get creative about my poses. XD

Till tomorrow, lovelies!