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Today’s Workout: C25K Week 4

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I know it’s only Tuesday but, I think I’m doing pretty good with getting in my running after work. If I stick to doing it right when I walk in the door before I can talk myself out of it, I bet I can get 4 runs in this week. It does take time away from my evening writing/editing/needlework but if I’m not healthy, I can’t do any of those things. Plus, I think it is actually helping with the depression symptoms.

I have been eating breakfast; usually one toaster pastry because I can eat that on the go but I’m still working my way through my batch of flank steak and rice, then I made a salad for dinner after my run. Everything together actually broke 1,000 calories, which is rare but since I’m running again, I’m not going to worry. I clearly burned a ton of calories today and got my heart rate up. Also, I don’t feel that horrid overfullness I can get on the Saxenda if I overeat. I feel satisfied and accomplished. Sore, but accomplished.

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Today’s Workout: Who cares?

These days I’ve skipped running after work because I’m too tired but today I was still too tired but did it anyway. Because who cares if I’m tired, I gotta do it anyway. I walked into the house, changed my clothes, and got it over with.

At first I wasn’t hungry when I got home since I had rice and some flank steak but after my run, I felt a little peckish. I got some tuna in water, added an onion, lemon juice and olive oil and that hit the spot. I thought about making a full on salad but this was more than enough.

I’m gonna try and keep going to run 3-4 times a week since I have a doctor’s appointment coming up and I’d like to show more progress so maybe the insurance/pharmacy will stop playing around with my refills of Saxenda. I’ve been waiting a MONTH since the last time I requested a refill and it’s still “delayed.”

In other news, my fingernails are going back properly! I’ve been taking my vitamins regularly, drinking less, and it’s working! Hopefully, that separation will never happen again.

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Today’s Workout: Third time’s a charm

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While I’m doing c25k again to take advantage of the interval training, I have noticed at least this time around, a bit of certain aches that mean perhaps running every single day isn’t the best idea? At least for right now. Tomorrow I plan to take a break. I’ll probably do some stretching or take a walk. I also have resistance bands that I unearthed in my decluttering journey that I should really get back to using since I paid money for them and they’re taking up space in my life.

I’m back to the half doses of Saxenda and we’ll see how my mood adjusts over the next few weeks. I can already tell just being aware of these side effects, I’m able to push myself rather than just wallow. And by push myself, I mean be on a normal level of weird like I usually am. Also, I will have to take a picture of my nails to show the progress of them growing back properly. I’ve been very good about taking my vitamins. I sure hope posting about all of this will show up in searches for someone considering weight loss medications because a lot of this would have been helpful to know when I started.

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Today’s Workout: Epic Facepalm

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I’m still working on C25k and making sure running is part of my routine. However, you are all aware that I’ve mentioned that I’ve been dealing with a long standing depressive episode, right? Well, fuck me with a rusty pineapple:

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Seriously? Fucking SERIOUSLY?! I’ve had the dubious pleasure of dealing with debilitating gas, my ass turning into a rocket ship, the inability to eat a reasonably portioned meal and on top of that, THIS BULLSHIT?! I get to go from being depressed because I’m fat to being EXTRA depressed trying to fix the fact that I’m fat!!

Look, Imma be completely honest about my process with all of this. I dunno how many other blogs are out there writing about this shit but like when I was talking about those weird ass bubbles I was getting (still no solution to that either!) I’m noting all this in case any body is dealing with the same shit I am. You’re not alone, you’re not crazy, you sure as shit not weak, and keep talking to your doctor. On my next visit, I am absolutely going to bring this up; including the horrific urge to self harm – which I can count on one hand the times I have legitimately had that urge in my entire life that I can remember.

I won’t lie, getting back to running helps. I get the happy runner’s high from being active that tempers these side effects. I’m not going to rely too heavily on that, however. I would rather cut back on my dose again. Losing weight is hard enough…

Over the next few days, I’m going to ease back on my injections so I can get centered again. I may not lose weight as fast but that’s fine. I don’t have time for feeling like shit since I’m one unplanned repair from not being able to pay my mortgage. 

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Today’s Workout: Chilly!

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It’s interesting that they’re doing the personality in a computer thing again but I don’t mind it. I love this app too much to complain about any kind of repeated tropes when we’re 10 season’s in at this point. I’m honestly glad just to be using it again because it felt good to keep moving.

As for my food, all I had was a salad today. And I struggled to finish it. Looks like using the anti-gas pills to mitigate the symptoms of being on the full dose of Saxenda really works well. I literally felt sick trying to finish a reasonably sized portion that I used to eat all the time. I really need to half all my portions so I can space out my meals properly during the day. If I eat breakfast at all it’s something really light,  tend to go heavy for lunch, then another light meal for dinner if I eat it at all. It’s frustrating unless I batch cook when it comes to making meals for someone other than myself. I have to make sure there’s something prepped for my teenager to eat (unless their father orders them takeout behind my back which ends up in my food rotting in the fridge and ending up in the trash). I’ll work it out, portion control isn’t that hard while I’m on these meds.

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Today’s Workout: Struggle

I gotta say, it was hard to get up and go for a run before work. I’m at the start of a TON of overtime at work. I spend my Saturday and after work today prepping a bunch of food so I can save on cooking time during the week (so expect repeats of food).

However, I did feel good during and after the run, as I expected. This is week 2 of C25K and I’ll be doing more resistance/weight training the rest of the week. Hopefully, I’ll be out of the 200 club this month!

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Today’s Workout: This works!

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I usually take weekends off from workouts but getting up to run on Saturday and Sunday is totally worthwhile. Especially on Saturdays since if I’m not working that day, I spend that day doing laundry so, I can wash the sweaty clothes right away. I’m still on the fence about if it’s worth taking two showers but I guess it’s not necessary if I’m not going anywhere and I can save on the water bill.

While I am working out on the weekends, I did not stick to my diet. I will be completely honest about that. Lately I’ve been craving snacks; especially late in the evening. I need to get disciplined about not eating anything after dinner is done no matter how much I just feel like munching on something. It’s not worth it in the long run and it’s affecting my progress.

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Today’s Workout: Absolutely wild.

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I actually got up and made sure to get a run in before I went to work and while I may bitch and complain about it before and during the workout, it felt great to get that out of the way before anything else that day.

I didn’t take time for breakfast since I didn’t want to delay the workout at all and risk talking myself out of it but, I did have a sandwich for lunch and my usual Itaki dinner. I have this random period where I decide sandwiches are my jam and I need to have one but I didn’t make my own bread this time. I really should because the cost of a loaf of bread is fucking WILD. I need to make a habit of dragging out the bread machine since a bag of flour, yeast, and butter all together is cheaper by serving than just buying bread. Anything to save a few bucks, ya know?

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Today’s Workout: Scheduling

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After concluding I just don’t have the energy to run after work anymore, I thought doing it on my days off would work better. Instead of sleeping in, I got up and got on the treadmill before starting any chores. I restarted C25K and it felt good to be running again. It’s the best way for me to burn as many calories as possible.

I didn’t take any photos of my food but to run it down, I had some leftover pizza for lunch and made salmon, rice, and broccoli for dinner. And there’s plenty left to pack for tomorrow. I also got a bunch of cleaning done and found a bunch of books to donate to the library. Little by little, I’ll get rid of all the clutter.

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Today’s Workout: Switching it up

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Yeah, I’m not having much luck working out after work. I have been too tired and end up skipping it. And I don’t think the peddler is intense enough to be relying on it as my sole cardio. So, I’m trying to get up early three times a week and running before I go to work. It’s a long day but it’s worth it to get in the run, clean up real quick, then head off to deal with the rest of my day. And I’m using Zombies Run and c25k to keep track of my time and intervals.

A big part of running in the morning is preparing my lunch the night before. So, while I was making dinner (that first picture with the swordfish) I prepped my food for the Itaki. I also had time to make some breakfast but on the Saxenda, all that was way too much food. Dinner came around and the thought of eating anything else made me feel sick. I need to have something lighter in the morning, even though a bagel with egg is so comforting after a run.

By the way, that swordfish was delicious. I marinated it in olive oil and lemon juice and pan fried it with olive oil, butter, and whole garlic cloves. If I get a decent deal on it again, I’ll absolutely buy some more. 

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